My Traumatic Life – A Novel of a Clueless Girl

My Traumatic Life – A Novel of a Clueless Girl

Work Dress
Me in my “work” clothes

Life is funny at times.  It appears the old saying, when it rains it pours, is true. Just when I contemplated my life might get a little boring, a miniature tornado hits. My non-chaotic life of a few weeks ago has been exchanged with constant ongoing roadblocks. As I sit here I’m thinking, did I pay all our bills? Was anything overlooked while in Florida? Mind you I keep a list of bills and due dates. Bills are not an area of my life I take the … it will be fine mentality to.

Joyous Bill Paying

Bills, Finances, Work, Money
We pay the bills, but we hate it.

The problem is, I marked the bills paid. I got called on emergency leave before I actually paid them. Deep sigh. The only way I can determine if I did pay them is to get onto the websites and see if the bill was paid. If not pay it.  Sounds stress-free enough. Except it’s paid day again. Meaning another group of bills are due on top of the first. Oh well, I can get it back on track and hopefully the regular level of agony known as bill paying can return to my life. Maybe then, I can start working out again.

Fitbit – On my Case to Walk

I’m pretty sure my Fitbit in fact hates me. In the past few weeks I haven’t paid attention to any of its warnings. Fitbit wants me to walk 250 steps per hour. I could check, but I’m pretty sure my day-to-day numbers are around 3,800-5,000 steps. Although it may not sound horrible, I do make sure I get the recommended 10K. The drawback, I’m so overwhelmed with everything else, I can’t seem to get my butt in gear. Not to worry though, making matters worse I’ve gained all the weight back I lost. Thank you square one, but I didn’t want to see you so soon.

South Carolina, Here I Come

I would try and get my act together. After all, I am a big believer in there’s no time like the present. On the other hand, I will be going to South Carolina for work.  While the trip will only be a week, it feels like a month.  Possibly the hotel will have a gym. Possibly not. Honestly, it feels like a lot of work to even pack gym clothes at this point. Don’t get me wrong, I know I’m seriously lacking motivation at this point. However, I can’t seem to shake how discombobulated I am from Florida.

Family Stress – Zapping Energy one Family Member at a Time

The stress of family and not knowing what the next phone call may bring is really weighing on me. I know I need to get back to some type of normalcy. Any of the above would do that. Mentally, I want a vacation. Certainly that isn’t something that will be happening any time soon.

I did book a cruise to the Bahamas. The cruise line said we have 18 months to go. Despite wanting a vacation, it feels like a lot of effort. With any luck Breezy and Shayne will want to go with us. Guess I’ll bring it up when I can muster some enthusiasm. If Gloomy Gus asks, they will be like…..ugh, no. They will probably say no anyway. They’re currently in baby making negotiations. Baby 1. Grandpa and grandma 0.

Who Doesn’t Love a Baby?

I have to admit, we are very excited to have a grandbaby. My enthusiasm is just not up to par right now. I don’t judge anyone, but for the first time in my life I can say I understand why people take uppers. I’m not condoning drugs and I will certainly push through without it (that’s my inner health nut talking). When people talk of a downward spiral, they aren’t kidding. I consider myself pretty resilient. Needless to say, life gets us all at some point.

If anyone has tips to get my motivation going, please let me know. There are no dumb suggestions.

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