The Gift of Parenting

Westside, Mom Daughter
Let’s just say, we like West Coast Hip Hop and leave it at that (2009).

Life with a Curve Ball

I’m not certain when my daughter was young I truly grasped how awesome motherhood is. How fast the time goes by.  Sure, I was a young parent (teenager), but having that cute little bundle is hard to resist.  Albeit a super tornado in childhood, she was the sweetest little human I ever met. I think I was totally blinded to the terrible twos and even as I write this I know it isn’t true.  I was around plenty of toddlers without manners and screamed if you looked at them.  But my little angel always said please and thank you.

GSXR, Motorcycle, kids
Breezy was forever modeling and organizing plays (aprox. 1998).

The Wonderful years

I have to wholeheartedly admit, two was my favorite age.  Once walking and talking, I thought she was the cutest thing I’d ever laid eyes on.  So inquisitive, wanting to learn about so many things.  I guess I must have known she was something because sure enough, I took her to a modeling agency. They signed her right away.  It went a little sideways when her Kit Kat commercial audition went silent. Surprise, she didn’t get the part. Despite not being great with lines, they suggested I take her to L.A. That’s when mama bear came back to reality.

Modeling, Breezy, Cuteness
Breezy after run way model class (1996).

My Mini Human

I hope every mama out there is as proud to be a mom as I am!!

My point being, many things in life are more important than fame and fortune. I don’t begrudge anyone who seeks it out.  For me, the only thing I could think of was childhood stars who didn’t fare well as teenagers.  After all, I’m part of the Drew Barrymore and Corey Haim era. I do have to say, I love Drew as an adult actress. Sorry, my fantasies were taking over again.  The mere idea of trading her childhood for fame, not at the possibility of drugs and alcohol. To this day, I ask myself all the time if I did the right thing.

I found this quote on Parents.com and I believe, it expresses what we as mothers feel on a regular basis.

“Nothing else can produce the joy or broken heart that motherhood allows. I couldn’t imagine going through life without feeling that spectrum of emotion.  There are wonderful days when I feel my cup runneth over. There are days that I want to run away and question every decision I have ever made.  Feeling it all, good or bad, gives my life purpose.  Motherhood is walking around with all of your nerve endings raw and exposed.  It is the most extreme measure of being alive.”

–Vivienne Borne, Maryland

Dinner, Kitchen, Toddler
Breezy regularly played in this cabinet. Easiest way to keep her happy while cooking (1994).

Am I doing the right thing?

I think this is a question all moms ponder sometime during their kids lives.

Despite the fact we don’t know at the time if we are making the right decisions, try measuring the good with the bad.  That’s what I do to this day. I don’t feel like I’m very liberal, but even as a teenage I pretty much let her do as she chose. Make no mistake though, Breezy got straight A’s and showed the upmost respect to others. I may have been a nice mama, but this mama isn’t a push over. I recall thinking about my teenage years over and over. Each day thankful that she didn’t act as I did. Deep sigh. I guess I figured if she wasn’t doing those things, she was perfect.

Now 23, she recently asked how I became such a good mom.  My reply, I winged it. I wish I had a formula I could give her that would unlock the mystery of motherhood, but it doesn’t exist. All I can say is, enjoy the moment. Good or bad. Relish in their little personalities. Every no you tell them stops the creativity in their minds. If she couldn’t hurt herself or someone else, I just let her do it. Sure, there was a mess. But for a long time she was happy and entertained. When I saw the excitement on her little face it was worth the cleanup. Believe it or not, she cleaned the above mess herself. Sure she threw the cans, but who cares they’re just cans.

Ice Skating, Shayne, Sprinker
The first time I met my future son-in-law (2011).

I guess I can say that I made the right decision.  After all, she is successful and married to a man that loves her more than life. Without a doubt they are soul mates. She couldn’t have found him in L.A. and I couldn’t have found my soul mate either. I believe we cannot fully understand life in the moment we live it, but hind sight is 20/20. Believe in yourself and the rest will come together.

Hawaii, Volcano, Sass
This pretty much sums up our entire relationship (2012).
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